I am a little stress bunny lately. I realized this morning as I was driving into work that my four year full time anniversary date was the 22nd, and next month I’ll have been with my present employer for 5 years. Five years is the longest I’ve done anything in my adult life. I’ve never been in a relationship that lasted 5 years, I’ve never lived in any apartment for 5 years (though I lived in SF for 5 1/2 years straight before I left and came back). So 5 years at one company is pretty impressive.
I’m lucky to work for such a great place and lucky I have job security, but now that I’m fully vested, I’m somehow more stressed about the future than I was before. Originally I thought I’d have enough money to go back to school for a couple of years and move on to something else, but I realize now that a) I don’t and b) even if I did, I wouldn’t feel comfortable leaving my job right now.
Having a partner complicates matters too. It’s one thing to look after myself and only myself, but I worry about the German boy who’s still looking for a job in pretty bleak situation — bad economy and no visa. The near term future is uncertain so the long term future is too, and all of it makes my head whir.